back from summer break...

how short the time could it be..
just a blink of an eye it's already 2 months..
i hadn't done much things at all..
as i leave, i teared up out of nowhere..
as i saw how hard my mom cried.. insisted not to send me to airport..
finally understands it may be so hard for my mom seeing me off..
well.. i did not expected myself to cry but ever since i left home 3 years ago..
i had never teared up in front of my family and for once i did..

now, i moved in to a new home and everything seems different..
i would had thought maybe i could have been much happier though but...
it turns out vice versa... i don't know why i said that but i had that feeling of mine back in those days...
i felt as if i don't click with anyone at all.. i have no one to actually share to..
as i see my friends leaves one by one, the more depressing it becomes..
for now, i will be only locking myself in the room not going anywhere..

sometimes i just want to be found by friends but it seems like i'm just invisible..
all i can say is i don't blame anyone.. i blame myself for being selfish..
just wanting them to be by my side whenever i want them to be..