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when you need someone to help you in your problem, you beg for their help and they helped.. once they're no longer useful for you, you throw or put them aside.. also, when you need for their helps again, you will feel regret after putting them aside without caring their feelings.. is everyone like that or is it only me doing it.. i think it's myself.. somehow i really don't know how to face them properly.. i felt like the most stupidest person in this world.. only know how to use people but not helping my own self nor helping others.. i'm sick of myself.. God, what is my life being here?? I really wonder.. no matter what i have done, surely it's a wrong thing.. and when it comes to making something better, it became worst than before.. i'm not surprise that most of the people dislike me and i admit that all i did is totally wrong.. isn't it better to just communicate through msn.. it's easier 'cause you won't see any unhappy, sad, angry faces and etc.. sometimes i thinks that God has given two roads to me but i don't know which road to take.. well, i rather not taking both of the roads and open another road by myself walking alone through that path without anyone ..

thoughts -

having random thoughts are not actually good.. cause it makes you thinks too much ~ but in some other way.. it's alright..
well, people say it's bad to be more mature because you look old if you are mature.. but it's not being mature in a physical way, it's in a mentally way of thinking .. so it could helps you understand more on people and other things too.. whether it's a good thing or a bad thing ~
on the other hand, people ignores you doesn't mean they hate or put you aside lonely just like that.. it's because they might have things on their mind or their concentrating on something while you're trying to get their attention.. try re-considerate when those are really busy while you're disturbing them..
also, why don't you try thinking over something before you said it.. especially when you do not know what's going on in the middle of the story and ask that person to go away as in just further away from you or etc.. without understanding the situation and you already made the decision, you said that person is wrong.. some people will forgive what you're doing and don't care about it.. but what if you met someone the opposite of it?? and that person is very straight forward??
comes to having relationship is the hardest thing.. when that person is right for you then it's yours but if it's not.. please do not force it to happen.. it'll make it worst.. in this world now, you could see mostly couples together is because of either money, pity, friendship, or etc.. love must be lasting but there's times when it's only a short times ..
love is money? love is blind? what is love? do you even know?! ask yourself ..
life is not that easy as it is now.. only the past not present or future..
this is my opinion of thinking.. it might hurt your feelings for what i said.. but it's the truth.. think over it.. is this what you actually wants?

dedicated to my very dearest and beloved friend, D.W

a door that has been closed for so long ..
and you've successfully opened it..
you're the only person to be trusted and believed; no other person can replace but you..
among everyone i knows, there's no one can be trusted & believed but 'YOU'..
sharing almost everything and didn't felt any regret at all..
all secrets were kept safely by you..
you're like a safe box that keeps things safely and only that person who ask you kept can opens it when it's safe..
a person like you is hard to find and i will never let go such dearest friend of mine ..
knowing you for only a year but those times were the greatest of all..
i actually wished..
"isn't it better if we've knew each other at the very young age?!"
when you're needed, you're always there by my side ~

take care & bless you^^
love you ♥ muacksss ~

Believing

There may be days when you get up in the morning and things aren't the way you had hoped they would be.



That's when you have to tell yourself that things will get better. There are times when people disappoint you and let you down.



But those are the times when you must remind yourself to trust your own judgments and opinions, to keep your life focused on believing in yourself.



There will be challenges to face and changes to make in your life, and it is up to you to accept them.



Constantly keep yourself headed in the right direction for you. It may not be easy at times, but in those times of struggle you will find a stronger sense of who you are.



So when the days come that are filled with frustration and unexpected responsibilities, remember to believe in yourself and all you want your life to be.



Because the challenges and changes will only help you to find the goals that you know are meant to come true for you.



Keep Believing in Yourself

Friendship & Love

18 things we need to know ~ ~

1. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear.
2. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
3. Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget.
4. You can only go as far as you push.
5. Actions speak louder than words.
6. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else.
7. Don't let the past hold you back; you're missing the good stuff.
8. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while, you might miss it.
9. A best friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have.
10. If you think that the world means nothing, think again. You might mean the world to someone else.
11. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there
12. True friendship never ends.
13. Friends are forever.
14. Good friends are like stars....You don't always see them, but you know they are always there.
15. Don't frown. You never know who is falling in love with your smile.
16. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry?
17. NOBODY IS PERFECT UNTIL YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM. (Isn't that the truth?)
18. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end.