thoughts -

having random thoughts are not actually good.. cause it makes you thinks too much ~ but in some other way.. it's alright..
well, people say it's bad to be more mature because you look old if you are mature.. but it's not being mature in a physical way, it's in a mentally way of thinking .. so it could helps you understand more on people and other things too.. whether it's a good thing or a bad thing ~
on the other hand, people ignores you doesn't mean they hate or put you aside lonely just like that.. it's because they might have things on their mind or their concentrating on something while you're trying to get their attention.. try re-considerate when those are really busy while you're disturbing them..
also, why don't you try thinking over something before you said it.. especially when you do not know what's going on in the middle of the story and ask that person to go away as in just further away from you or etc.. without understanding the situation and you already made the decision, you said that person is wrong.. some people will forgive what you're doing and don't care about it.. but what if you met someone the opposite of it?? and that person is very straight forward??
comes to having relationship is the hardest thing.. when that person is right for you then it's yours but if it's not.. please do not force it to happen.. it'll make it worst.. in this world now, you could see mostly couples together is because of either money, pity, friendship, or etc.. love must be lasting but there's times when it's only a short times ..
love is money? love is blind? what is love? do you even know?! ask yourself ..
life is not that easy as it is now.. only the past not present or future..
this is my opinion of thinking.. it might hurt your feelings for what i said.. but it's the truth.. think over it.. is this what you actually wants?