now?? or past??

do you think life can be full of happiness ??
well, there is if you think of a way like that.. but not me..
God would not give us such an easy life.. if it's so easy, what were we meant for in this world to do?? but there must some challenges for us which were ways to learn our mistakes..
wishing for better life?? it could not be even better .. our lifes are fulls of hidden truth that you had never seen before..
there's lies you don't notice and when they're not lies, you think of it as lies ..
everyone and each one of us has their own hidden truth is that whether you want to show it at all.. but most of us don't .. beyond those fake smiles lies the real truth of all..
i agree i myself admit that i do fakes smiles and bad at acting .. why ?? ... try you think ><''
life can be so difficult when others were more sensitive than you thought they were..
believe it or not ?? !! i have no idea.. it's just some feelings of mine.. compare with college life and high school life?? high school would be the 'BEST' of all ~ there's freedom in college life but complicated.. the times when we're high school students were the most fun that we had ..

Friend & Acquaintance

There is a difference between being an acquaintance and being a friend. An acquaintance is someone whose name you know, who you see every now and then, who you probably have something in common with and who you feel comfortable around.

It's a person that you can invite to your home and share things with. But they are people who you don't share your life with, whose actions sometimes you don't understand because you don't know enough about them.

On the other hand, a friend is someone you love. Not that you are "in love" with them, but you care about them and you think about them when they are not there. The people you are reminded of when you see something they might like, and you know this because you know them so well. They are the people whose pictures you have and whose faces are in your head regardless.

Friends are the people you feel safe around because you know they care about you. They call just to see how you are doing, because a friend doesn't need an excuse. They tell you the truth, the first time, and you do the same. You know that if you have a problem, they are there to listen.

Friends are the people who won't laugh at you or hurt you, and if they do hurt you they try hard to make it up to you. They are the people you love, regardless of whether you realize it.

Friends are the people you cried with when you got rejected from colleges and during the last song at the prom and at graduation. They are the people that when you hug them, you don't think about how long to hug and who's going to be the first one to let go.

Maybe they are the people that hold the rings at your wedding, or maybe they are the people who give you away at your wedding, or maybe they are the people you marry. Maybe they are the people who cry at your wedding because they are happy or because they are proud.

They are the people who stop you from making mistakes and help you when you do. They are are the people whose hand you can hold, or you can hug or give them a kiss and not have it be awkward because they understand the things you do and they love you for them.


They stick with you and stand by you. They hold your hand. They watch you live and you watch them live and you learn from them. Your life is not the same without them.

complicated life isn't it??

there's no reason behind it ..
without words or explains ..
it's just something how you felt and it's totally different ..
you do not need to show it
or tell anyone about it ..
are you willing to do it?? .. so it's up to you ..
do what ever you want as long as you don't hurt yourself or anyone else ..
once you've done it, there will be no return..
no return of regrets after all the effort you've done
and the result was not as you've expected..
you have to learn to accept all the consequences ..
even it's not what you want it to be ..
life can be so unfair .. all we can do is accepting it..
I, myself also hates the life i'm having right now ..
but the only thing to keep me move on is .. .. ..
there's a lot people beside me, supporting me all the way till here ..
i must not let them down because of such little things..
look forward, moving on with only one reason ..
our life is full with bitter, sweet and sour memories ..
wondering I could remember those memories eventhough it's bitter and sour ..
knowing those memories is meant to be forgotten but ..
at least it's just a memory to remembered .. cause it already past..
well, as for sweet memories will always be remembered ~
because people tends to remember only the sweet times . .
treasures your friends whom also treasures you as well ..
eventhough there's conflict in between but think for a second ..
weren't you friends before? and you've shared so much memories with each other..
because of conflicts, everything has to be an end ??
then, at first .. .. .. why??
everything could be solved when one stands up and tells the truth ..

down ...... happy.....

i don't want the worst of me in the past comes back to me again !!
i had enough of it ad.. (GO AWAY!!!) I'm scared .. all those thoughts were much better compare to now.. the combination of the past and present is not going to be a good thing at all..
I hate it !! argh!!

somehow.. i really don't get what others want anymore.. including myself also..
why am i changing ?? I don't want it to be like now.. i really want to go back ..
standing without you all makes me got worst.. but i know you all were there by my side all along.. i will always treasure our friendships ><

to all my dearest friends and darlings, i love you all .. muacksssss .. hugsssss.. i'm coming back to meet you all soon .. hehe^^ i'll make sure i gonna make it for the 2nd of May ~ ~ wakakakazzzz.. I was shocked to received your message.. but i was really happy and tears just came out instantly.. it's been so long.. i thought you all forgotten me already.. but you all didn't ~ sooooo haaaappppyyyy !! =D

rubbish

i really dono what to say about ..
should i just die? and everyone would forgive me?
i know dying doesn't solve anything.. but really..
if it continues like this, i really gonna ***
due to the pressure that might occur through my neck..
the more things i think or depressed or giving myself pressure, the worst it will be..
it might slowly be a kind of sickness ..

(talking rubbish) ~ ~ haha