ugh..

"i'm sick of it already"
so irritated and annoyed.. so .. pissed..
i came back for what? i rather stayed there..
this is freakin' sick sick SICK!!
i don't even have those kind of mood already;
why can't I have longer time staying here..
so hard to spend more time ..
this is not what i wanted or wished :(

thinkin'

i really don't get what do they want..
why is it so hard to communicate?
why are they so different from what i imagined?
tryin' to understand them.. but ..
i think i would become an annoyin' and irritated person;
by tryin' to know them more..
i didn't know it's much harder here than there..
well, i do admit i'm a lonesome and unsocialable person;
sometimes i think i talk to much too.. haha XD

- expectation in life -

life goes just like that..
whether it's sweet, sour or bitter moments;
feeling tired, bored, exciting or maybe to be loved..
i don't know..
life is so complicated; hard to understand..
unsociable person like me is hard .. going through life here..
and always thinking what other thinks about me;
i wish they're just like my secondary friends..
easy and hmmm.. just fun to talk to..
or maybe i'm still new in this kind of environment;
i just wan to find someone that i trust and talk to..
as in always be there by my side sharing ~
how i wish there's someone..
i'm still looking for that person but .. haiz..
others might be starting to dislike me or hated me;
i do understand why.. i'm so sorry for being a 'busy body' though
or what i've been doing; i'm trying to get in to the topic but still . . no use . .
well, i guess it can be helped.. eventhough, i've gone through those but still .. haha XD